When I was selected as artist in residence for NRC Newspaper in 2013, I was interviewed about my work. I had to make a self portrait, which I did by scratching on a self portrait photo with a scarp knife. Back then, I made a lot of collage illustrations and experimented with lots of different material. At this time, my father had just died. So I was still feeling very sad about this, while also thrilled to be working at the HQ of this big newspaper in Amsterdam. These mixed feelings are expressed in this dark portrait.